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-Theme of control

When do you feel controlled, or out of control?

Ideas;

-The character as he/she falls asleep, the feeling of being so out of control as your mind evaluates life

-A ballet dancer with strict teacher feeling the pressure and stress from everything until but is just craving attention.

-A young girl’s Grandad commits suicide, how It left her questioning control and how out of control she felt and so must he. And then a close family friend commits suicide and she feels completely out of control as, how can two people just disappear.

-A housewife from the 50’s who feels no control and is utter controlled by her husband and she is having an affair which gives her the feeling of control.

-A girl who is under constant pressure to make her parents proud to live up to an expectation that seems so out of reach, not driven by stress from her parents but by the stress and expectations she places on herself, she is desperate for recognition.

–A teenage girl (16) She has voices in their head, feeling completely normal but the voices and her body has gone crazy. She feels so out of control. Was in a car crash and woke up alive as her family was dead around her  

Her whole family was killed in a car crash. She woke up alive as her family was dead around her. A scaring moment that changes her life. After the crash, she goes into depression and then the voices enter towards the end of chapter one 

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-The start of the chapter: She’s in school and sits in the classroom it’s raining. She and hears a car screech past this triggers the flashback…

-Flashback; Describing waking up, the blurred vision, stiff body. Very detailed description of how she feels and what she see’s. How it pains her to recall this.

-Back to sitting in school, describe the feeling of being stared at but not caring, describing the feeling of nothingness she feels. How she feels no motivation no belonging she feels physically in pain. She goes back to school after 1 month of decisions, with layers and adults, 1 month of pain, 1 month of crying.  the voices in her head start to infiltrate her mind. They begin to tell her that everyone is out to get her, that the teachers, the lawyers, her friends are all trying to take you away from her family. They are telling her to act out to make a scene, they are telling her that her family left her, they didn’t want to be with her.

She experiences a lack of control, (panik) as she can see that these voices are controlling her physical self, but her mind is still fine she is in a battle with the voices, as all she wants to do is grieve the loss of her family, she knows they didn’t leave her on purpose.  but the voices are telling her to act out they are controlling her actions and she begins to act out say crazy things in class,

End of the chapter is, options, her falling asleep, being dragged away by the teacher in the class or counselor etc, running out of the classroom in a hurry and tripping over, she just lays there as her mind in jammed full of craziness and a ringing of voices.

Notes

-Genre: Drama

-Main character Girl, 16 years old,

-Her mother, father and older brother die in a car crash.

-Setting, Gravesend (U.K) winter time

-Point of view, First person from the protagonist

-Vocabulary, is teenage language, some cursive words, slang, eg… “I’m going nuts”

-Things to include: emotional numbing, feeling like she is living in an unreality, panic reactions, suspiciousness, antisocial personality disorder or dissociative disorders. Impulsivity, aggression, sexual acting out, eating disorders, alcohol or drug abuse, and self-destructive actions), intense rage, depression, or panic, fragmented thoughts, Lung, heart and chest pain is a physical symptom of depression. Feeling there was no safe place. Not being able to close their eyes without seeing the faces. “Triggers can come from anywhere at any time… a smell, a look/ glance, a vibe, a dream… how someone treats you. You are unable, as hard as you try, to turn it off.” — Mike T.

It’s all happening right in front of your eyes over and over. Your body’s here, but your mind is still there. There’s a door and you want to go through it to get away from it, so you do and it leads you right back to that moment. And you see that door again and you know it won’t work, but, hell, maybe it’ll work. So you step through that door and you’re right back in that horrible moment every time. You still feel it every time. So you just want to stop opening that door. So you just sit in it. But I assure you, one of those doors leads out, my friend

You know that feeling you get when someone jumps out and scares you and you are on high alert for a few minutes? That alertness never goes away for me

My nightmares when I’m asleep bleed into my daily life. At times after just getting up I’m unable to differentiate whether I’m awake or asleep. They feel so real, I even experience the physical pain in them. Then while I am at home if someone knocks on my door I could scream and start rocking back and forth

-Background information on the protagonist, she is young 16, grew up in the small town of Gravesend, never lived anywhere else. She is an introvert, has a couple of friends but isn’t very close with them. She is a home-body, her best friend is her

Her physical symptoms

Think about the whole story, is there a resolution? is it a series of novels

-what could the resolution be?

The novel, goes through the life of the protagonist her struggles through her insanity, think

Quirky

People with PTSD may feel intense fear. They may feel that their world has fallen apart, that everything is black and that nothing makes sense. Worse still, they can often lose hope or the belief that they can recover and lead a worthwhile life. 

Children may be more vulnerable to PTSD than adults who have experienced the same stress or trauma. Their response to trauma may also be different.

Sometimes long-term distress and anxiety can lead to panic attacks and some people may develop eating disorders. Sometimes people can use alcohol or drugs to make themselves feel better, but this just increases the chance of developing alcohol and drug abuse issues.

People with PTSD may be constantly watchful or jumpy. Their sleep is often disturbed and they may feel irritable and angry with themselves and others. Memory, concentration and decision-making are often affected.

You may try to avoid any situations, people or events that remind you of the trauma. You may be unable to feel emotions even for the people you love or care for. You may feel detached from others and may lose interest in things you once enjoyed.

The unpleasant feelings associated with the trauma keep coming back along with images, memories and intrusive thoughts about the event. There may be nightmares or bad dreams. In the daytime, you may feel that it’s all happening again or have brief but vivid memories or “flashbacks”.

• Having recurrent nightmares
• Acting or feeling as though the traumatic event were happening again, sometimes called a “flashback”
• Being physically responsive, such as experiencing a surge in your heart rate or sweating, to reminders of the traumatic event
• Having a difficult time falling or staying asleep
• Feeling more irritable or having outbursts of anger
• Feeling constantly “on guard” or like danger is lurking around every corner
• Making an effort to avoid thoughts, feelings, or conversations about the traumatic event
• A loss of interest in important, once positive, activities
• Experiencing difficulties having positive feelings, such as happiness or love